Year anniversary of returning home

It was a year ago today that I returned home from physical rehab. Looking back I still don't know how I made it through the surgery and extended hospital stay. But at the time, it wasn't an option to not walk. It did not sink in that I was in a bad spot for several months. Sitting there in rehab I would have never thought that 2011 would be this crazy. But, I got to spend this month with family and friends, which makes me very greatful of all that I have and the people who love me and have done so much more than I would ever expect. Not to forget Linda and Kathleen for all they have done so far. Without them I would spent this holiday season in a wheelchair. As happy as I am, I don't forget where I was and how much that reality is always lurking over my shoulder. Most people don't have the mindset of could I be walking today and my leg gives out for good? But all in all I am in good spirirts and looking forward for a better year next year.

CST Session 12/21/11

Tim arrived looking good.  He is happy and hopeful.  He let us know of his trip to Modesto and how the long car ride was not that bad.  Under certain traumas sitting for long periods of time can cause havoc on the body and recovery can take days.  This is a big step on his way to recovery.

Today was a pretty big day for Tim.  We tried a new remedy (which Linda will explain) and Tim seemed to handle it well.  What was interesting was how Tim could only feel from his head to his chest.  After keeping the ghHW method going for about half an hour things starting penetrating down his leg; however, it would exclude a triangular shaped area from the sternum to both thighs. 

Was able to complete quite a bit of head and mouth work today.  While working in Tim's mouth he could feel the skull itself try to shift.  In conjunction with the mouth work, we worked the T-zone.  In addition we worked on the right ear, temporal bone, jaw, TMJ, and his right eye socket.  Tim can feel the connections and pulls which helps him understand how compressed his body is and what it is doing to resolve it. 

Tim left feeling good for the holidays and commenting on what a different Christmas this will be for him and his family.  We look forward to continuing our journey in the New Year. 

Here's wishing you all the very merriest and most hopeful holiday season.  God Bless You All!

Feeling well

Having a surprisingly good few days. Some nasty pain flares, but nothing im not prepared for. Going to Modesto today for a christmas gathering, which is my first long car ride since July. Hope it goes well!

CST Session 12/14/11

Tim arrived today in good spirits.  He did have a few days where he experienced pain.  Some of the pain is coming from the work; while other pain is coming from the weather.  It is unseasonably cold where we are in California the cold can effect a lot of people with injuries.

We worked his legs again, up the spine and through the cranial vault.  We also used the MRS 2000+ mat.  This is a piece of equipment which aides in opening up capillaries and restrictions.  We also did neurofeedback (NFB) which shows seizure activity in fewer places.  The areas where seizure activity is still high will continue to be addressed over the next few sessions. 

It easy to look at injuries via the location in which they happened; however, all major traumas encompass injuries on many layers and through many systems.  We can not ignore how Tim's brain handled such a traumatic surgery and injury.  Tim's surgery impacted his spine; thereby effecting the cerebrospinal fluid - more important to be looking at EEG's and seeing how the brain has reacted.

We continue to work on all layers and areas.  Tim left feeling good and heading off to his music studio!

Recap of week

As I am about to go into my weekly appointment I would say the most notable things to mention are the help of the remedy I take at night and the Rhus tox for the itching in my right leg. The cold slows me down, but I'm still able to push thru it and go to class and work at my studio. I know the itching in my leg is a good sign, it just can be very annoying without the proper remedy.

CST Session 12/7/11

Today we go deeper.  As we go deeper into such traumatic injuries the pain starts to service.  For most clients up to 10 sessions can result in happier times; then it is the person who decides to go through all injuries in their lifetime does the pain begin.  This becomes a very tough time.  It is when you feel like you take 2 steps forward and 10 steps backwards.

Tim had a good session. We continue to work the areas of the spine most effected.  In addition we continue to work the 'anchor points'.  Anchor points are established when early traumas are not resolved.  As other injuries occur they will anchor around the primary roots established; strenghtening the anchor and entrenching the roots of it.

We have entered into this area with Tim.  This does not mean he is not getting better - it means he is finally feeling the pain of injuries suffered so long ago.  As pain surfaces one must get in touch with what the pain is about. If you chose to ignore what your body is trying to show you the pain will continue; if you chose to look within yourself and truly feel your body - your body will lead you to the parts of trauma one buried so long ago.

Remember the body usually speaks first through pain.  It is when we get deep into how the body took in the pain the soul surfaces.  This is when we begin to question what, when, where, why this is happening.  Our soul will lead us to ask questions and ponder issues we long since buried.  Once our body and soul are in sync the mind will come last.  Due to the patterns the brain developed since in-utero their may be neuropathways that formed which prevent our brain from recognizing the changes in our body and soul.

As Tim goes through the various stages we will write about them in more detail.  Tim left feeling very relaxed.  Tim was told about the potential pain surfacing and will let us know as it develops.  It is our job to aide Tim in connecting the pain to the injury surfacing; however, Tim is the only one with the answers and will have to listen to his body and soul as to what they are saying to him for resolution.

More of the same

It has been a very slow few days. Although my appetite has returned, I still have not been very active. The rain specifically causes a lot of fatigue and discomfort.

Just as Kathleen promised, I have been freezing down to my core. Very painful and uncomfortable. It seems to be centered in my mid back(surgery area). I have been wearing jackets indoors, and still have a blanket over me. I am still moving, just at a slower pace, so it isn't all bad.

One year anniversary of spinal cord surgery

It has been exactly a year since my spinal cord surgery. So I figured what better time to reflect on the last year or so. Since last October I have experienced pain and agony that I did not think was achievable. The feeling that I felt directly out of the 4 hour surgery feeling the worst pain I have ever felt. The surgeon had told me that it would be a "spinal cord legion". Which is fancy for a spinal cord injury. Having felt that followed by laying completely flat for four days in a neuroscience center, I felt so vulnerable. I went from being an invincible teenager to a spinal cord injury patient in a wheelchair at physical rehab.

But looking back, as I am about to go out to guitar class and not into surgery at least gives me hope that I made it this fr through all the ups and downs.

12/2/11- homeopath

Tim's has been taking Homeopathic remedies for injury daily.  But we also had him take a higher dose of a remedy to help him mind and body.  We are finding out that high strength (non- homeopathic) pain  medicines Tim takes might be negating the 200c we gave him.  So next week we will try another version called a LM to take daily at night so he can get 9hrs of the Hom. remedy in his body for the remedy to work.   We will see how this works.  The LM's work the same as the 200c but can be given daily and is gentle.  If you constantly re-dose a 200c. of a remedy (normally taken every 3 months- per classical homeopathic protocol ) it can stop the remedy from working permanently.  Although every case is different and one can re-dose a remedy more often if the person burns though it faster.

Fatigue

I am still tired from Wednesday's appointment. It fatigued me pretty bad and I am having trouble getting back into action feeling so weak. It is a huge burden when I am supposed to be helping with 8 hours of music for a charity event. I am stressed and just tired mentally and physically. It really does feel like people stop taking into account that I am still limited and have trouble getting through just a couple of hours of activity, not to mention all this work. I used to never feel overwhelmed, but more and more I get very nervous about doing things that used to not even phase me.